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Ariana
Stark
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2010-11 Outbound to
Hungary
Hometown:
St. Augustine, Florida
School:
St. Augustine High School
Sponsor:
St. Augustine Sunrise Rotary Club, District 6970, Florida
Host:
Szolnok Rotary Club, District 1911, Hungary
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Bio
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August 17 "I
don't want to look back and regret not doing something. I want to cherish
every possible moment of this experience because I know there is nothing
like it. " |
| September 14 "Culture shock didn’t
really seem to be as much of an issue as I expected either. True, there
are definite differences, like standing up when a teacher enters the
room, or eating pizza by cutting it up with a knife and fork. I’ve
learned to observe what others around me are doing and quickly follow
suit when necessary. " |
| September 29 "After
cutting the pig, part of the meat is cooked right away, while another
part is used to make sausages, called hurka. Now, watching the sausage
being made can be either fascinating or completely disgusting, possibly
a mix of both." |
| October 25 "
After cutting the pig,
part of the meat is cooked right away, while another part is used to make
sausages, called hurka. Now, watching the sausage being made can be either
fascinating or completely disgusting, possibly a mix of both." |
| November 19 "There
are times where I’ll forget something about English that should seem
natural. I’m getting so used to hearing something other than English." |
| December 29 "It’s
that feeling that you’ve accomplished something so difficult, something so
extraordinary. I’m thankful for each and every day here. It’s hard to say
that there’s a place that I would rather be." |
| February 8 "It’s
about adapting to the bumps along the road, not gripe about the perfect trip
we could have had. After all, it’s those bumps that become the adventures
that make everything all worth it. " |
| March 7 " I feel
I’ve grown so much through this experience. I feel so much older and mature.
I feel like I’ve become more confident of myself and my abilities. " |
| April 30 "I feel like I'm running
from time. I can’t believe there’s only two months left. I feel like I’ve
been here so long, but also that I haven’t been here long enough." |
| May 30 |
Ariana's Bio
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“Let me fall, let me climb. There's a moment when fear and dreams must
collide.
Someone I am is waiting for courage. The one I want, the one I will become will
catch me
So let me fall, if I must fall. I won't heed your warnings. I won't hear them.”
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Szervusz!
My name is Ariana Stark. I am a senior at Saint Augustine
High School (SAHS), and a student in St. John’s County Center for the Arts (SJCCA).
I live in Saint Augustine, Florida, the Oldest City in the United States. I
have a younger brother, 2 caring and supportive parents, and two cats.
Currently, my family is hosting a Rotary Exchange student from Italy. And,
most importantly, I will be spending my next school year in Hungary!
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“All I ask, all I need. Let me open whichever door I might open.
Let me fall, if I fall. Though the phoenix may or may not rise”
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I am an artist at heart. I draw, write, sing, compose and
play both the flute and piano. I sing with the Chamber Singers and Concert
Chorus as well as playing the flute in the Wind Ensemble and other musical
groups. I have been studying the flute for eight years, and am planning to
pursue music professionally. To me, art and music provide a way to
communicate without words. I enjoy all types of music, everything and
anything. From little known bands, to jazz, to Liszt’s Consolation No.3, to
the Beatles, I listen to it all. I chose Hungary because of its rich history
and look forward to a great experience for me.
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“I will dance so freely, holding on to no one. You can hold me only
if you too will fall away from all these useless fears and chains”
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I love to travel. So far, I have been to England, Japan,
South Korea, and Spain. I have also had the opportunity to host several
exchange students, from South Korea, Spain, France, Ecuador, Brazil, Japan,
and Italy. I am hoping to travel to many more places throughout the world.
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“Someone I am is waiting for my courage.
The one I want, the one I will become will catch me
So let me fall, if I must fall. I won't heed your warning. I won't hear.”
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I am open-minded and eager for change and new experiences.
I long to step out of my comfort zone and enter to realm of the unknown. I
want to soar on the wings of change, facing obstacles and overcoming them. I
believe my adventure is not waiting to begin . . .
. . . It has already begun . . .
. . . Ez birtokol már megkezdett . . .
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“Let me fall, if I fall. There's no reason to miss this one chance.
This perfect moment. Just let me fall.”
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Lyrics from Cirque du Soleil’s “Let Me Fall” from the
show Quidam |
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Little
train to the heart
Little
light in the dark
Little
hope that you just might find your way up out of here
Cause
you've been hiding for days
Wasted
and wasting away
But I've
got a little hope today you'll face your fears
Yeah I
know it's not easy, I know that it's hard
Follow
the lights to this city
It's
only a couple of days until I step on a plane and leave for the greatest
year of my life. Emotionally speaking, I would say that I'm excited and
nervous all at the same time. I wouldn't really say that I'm scared. True,
it's definitely slightly nerve-wracking. It might be safe to say that my
parents are more worried than I am.
Get up and go, Take a chance and be strong
Or you could spend your whole life holding on
Don't look back just go Take a breath move along
Or you could spend tour whole life holding on
On the plus
side, I have heard from my first host family in Szolnok. My host parents’
names are László and Anikó Kispál. László is a businessman and Anikó is a
kindergarten teacher. I will have two host siblings. Ansci likes to dance
and ride horses (and there is a horse ranch right on their street). Laci,
her brother, plays the guitar and tennis. They have two turtles, three cats,
and a dog. I cannot wait to meet them on August 22!!
Believe the tunnel can end.
Believe your body can mend.
Yeah I know you can make it though cause I believe in you
So let's go put up a fight
Let's go make everything alright
Go on and take a shot go give it all you got
Yeah I know it's not easy I know that it's hard
And it's not always pretty
Packing is
definitely one of the hardest parts that people seem to leave out of their
journal. The sight of one empty suitcase sitting in the middle of the room
is one of the most concrete signs that I'm leaving. Yes, I can only have one
free suitcase, which makes things so much harder. I never realized how
little space a suitcases can hold until I began packing for this journey.
Get up and go, Take a chance and be strong
Or you could spend your whole life holding on
Don't look back just go, Take a breath move along
Or you could spend tour whole life holding on
When I step
on that plane on August 21, I will be letting go of everything I have known
in my 17 short years of life. I don't want to look back and regret not doing
something. I want to cherish every possible moment of this experience
because I know there is nothing like it. My goal this year is to take each
moment and live it as though tomorrow may not come. I know this sounds like
a cliché, but I know the time will fly by so fast and before I know it, I'll
be coming back home with a whole new set of experiences and language that
has become a part of me. I don't want to be trapped by a routine that I have
known forever. I can't wait to experience something new and different from
what I have known.
Don't wanna wake up to the telephone ring
Are you sitting down I need to tell you something
Enough is enough you can stop waiting to breathe
And don't wait up for me
Still, it's
all so strange to think I will be leaving so soon. It seems like just the
other day I was going through the interview process and the first outbound
orientation. It's hard to believe that this day is finally here. If
everything that I have done so far has gone by so fast, this year will seem
over way to soon.
Get up and go, Take a chance and be strong
Or you could spend your whole life holding on
Don't look back just go Take a breath move along
Or you could spend your whole life holding on
I am a
getting ready to leave for the most memorable year of my life. When I
return, I want to be a citizen of the world, not of one country. I look
forward to being someone who is sure of themselves in any situation. I want
to be flexible and adaptive for whatever life decides to throw my way. I
believe that Rotary has done all they could to prepare me for everything
(roughly) and will be there if I need anything whether it be advice or help
with something in my school. I can't thank Rotary enough for allowing me to
depart on this experience to Hungary. They have worked so hard for all us “outbounds”.
I for one am not going to let them down.
Get up and go, Take a chance and be strong
Or you could spend your whole life holding on
Don't look back just go Take a breath move along
Or you could spend your whole life holding on
Don't spend your whole life holding on
-->Lyrics from
"Go" by Boys Like Girls album 'Heart Heart Heartbreak'<-- |
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A new world calls across the ocean
A new world calls across the sky
A new world whispers in the shadows
Time to fly, time to fly
My
flight over went as smoothly as possible, and I didn’t end up trying to fly
to Bucharest instead of Budapest (as my host family was worried about). Jet
lag didn’t catch up with me for a few days. As it turns out, my host family
lives in a “suburb” of Szolnok. However, they have a huge backyard, with
apple, pear, and plum trees. Everyone here has dogs, so they are barking all
night, and some actually howl at the moon. Also, whoever said that roosters
crow at the break of dawn lied. They crow any time they want to, even if
it’s one in the morning.
Possibly one of the most memorable events within my first few weeks in
Hungary would be my eighteenth birthday. With it being the day after I
arrived, I didn’t expect my family to make a big deal out of it. Yet, that
morning, all of them crowded in the room I share with Ancsi, to wake me up
by singing “Happy Birthday” in Hungarian. It turns out that they had woken
up early that morning to bake a cake for me. I feel like part of the family
already. My host mother takes pictures of everything. They call her
“Papperazzi Kispál” for a reason.
It's about one moment, the moment before it
all becomes clear
And in that one moment, you start to believe there's nothing to fear
It's about one second, and just when you're on the verge of success
The sky starts to change, and the wind starts to blow
And you're suddenly a stranger. There's no explaining where you stand
And you didn't know that you sometimes have to go
‘Round an unexpected bend and the road will end
In a new world
Starting school was interesting to say the
least. Before the start of every school year, there is a ceremony to
celebrate the accomplishments of the previous year and the hope for a good
year. It was a great opportunity for me to meet some of the students in my
class. They are all really nice, and always want to help me. In every class,
students want me to sit by them (especially in the English class). The best
part is that they are always helpful when I get that confused look on my
face, because I have little to no idea on what is going on. Because of my
age, I am in the 12th class, or one of the graduating classes. Every year,
at the school ball in December, the graduating class does a special dance
routine. So, every day, there is some form of discussion about the dance
that our class will do. One day, it’s the colors of the dresses and the
guys’ shirts. The next, it’s who wants to dance the Vienesse waltz (a
traditional part of the dance). Another day it’s what music we are dancing
to.
A new world calls for me to follow
A new world waits for my reply
A new world holds me to a promise
Standing by, standing by
Food, glorious food, magical food, wonderful
food. (To quote Oliver). They eat so much here. Also, they don’t just cover
everything with paprika. In my experience of food here, they also
collectively love salt, garlic and ketchup. Every day we tend to eat five
meals: breakfast, “elevenses” (a sort of brunch), lunch, late lunch (around
4) and then dinner. Also every meal, has at least two courses, one soup, and
then a sort of meat dish. Between these, everyone drinks coffee. There is
even a snack area in the school that sells coffee, and other drinks and
snacks between classes.
School lunch is actually pretty good here, much better then school lunch
back in Florida. My school is right by the Tisza Hotel, so the food is
better than I would have ever thought. Each day, we have a sort of soup,
followed by the main dish. Even at school, there is so much food. Students
eat so much every day. Between each class, most of them pull out another
sandwich to eat or go to buy a snack at the school canteen.
It's about one moment, that moment you
think you know where you stand
And in that one moment, the things that you're sure of slip from your hand
And you've got one second, to try to be clear, to try to stand tall
But nothing's the same, tnd the wind starts to blow
And you're suddenly a stranger in some completely different land
And you thought you knew but you didn't have a clue
That the surface sometimes cracks to reveal the tracks
To a new world
There are three other exchange students at my
school. The first one I met was Tiago, a student from Brazil. His host
brother, Martszi (I think that’s how it’s spelled), is in the same class as
me. At the school’s ceremony, I met Alonzo, a student from Mexico. He wants
to be a singer, and is a social butterfly. The third student is a girl from
Italy, Lavinia, who is here with the AFS exchange program.
Homesickness, what seems to be the bane of exchange students, hasn’t struck
yet. I’m grateful for that, but I am expecting it to arrive any day now.
Culture shock didn’t really seem to be as much of an issue as I expected
either. True, there are definite differences, like standing up when a
teacher enters the room, or eating pizza by cutting it up with a knife and
fork. I’ve learned to observe what others around me are doing and quickly
follow suit when necessary.
You have a house in the hills
You have a job on the coast
You find a lover you're sure you believe in
You've got a pool in the back
You get to the part of your life
You hold the ring in your hand
But then the earthquake hits
And the bank closes in
Then you realize you didn't know anything
Nobody told you the best way to steer
When the wind starts to blow
Public transportation is something worth getting
used to. Because my schedule for school is different from the other
student’s schedules in my class, I take the bus to school and home from
school almost every day. School here starts at 7:30, but because I live in
Szandaszólós (which is farther away) my host siblings and I have to get up
at 6 in the morning.
My first time taking the bus home by myself
could possibly be considered comedic. I off at the right stop, which was
what I was worried about. I didn’t think that I should have asked for
directions on how to get home from the bus stop. After all, I should be able
to remember it when I went with Ancsi once, right? Um…not really. I ended up
wandering around the neighborhood for about two hours. On the Brightside, I
had two bottles of tea in my backpack, and enough food to feed an army
(because my mother thinks I eat so much). Eventually, I had the smart idea
to go look at the map at the bus stop, and still made it home before
everyone else, but not by much.
And you're suddenly a stranger all of a
sudden
You life is different than you planned
And you'll have to stay ‘til you somehow find a way
To be sure of what will be
Then you might be free
In the card for my birthday, Ancsi wrote a quote
from Ben Stein “The first step to getting the things you want out of life
is this: Decide what you want.” I’ve decided that I want to make this
year extraordinary. So far, I’ve worked to embrace what may seem strange,
solve possible communication problems, and have begun making those
connections that make this very large world seem so much smaller. I’ve
stepped outside of my comfort zone, into the realm of the unknown. The first
step is always the hardest, but it’s the one that’s most worth the taking.
One of the questions I’ve been asked the most by others is “Why I chose to
come to Hungary?” Every day I spend here, I find myself discovering the
answer to this in a small town in Hungary’s great plain and its residents
with large hearts. My first two weeks here have been bizarre, confusing, and
curious, yet I love every minute of it.
A new world crashes down like thunder
A new world charging through the air
A new world just beyond the mountain
Waiting there, waiting there
A new world shattering the silence
There's a new world I'm afraid to see
A new world louder every moment
Come to me, come to me
Song Lyrics from “Opening of a
New World” from Jason Robert Brown’s Songs for a New World |
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She's a good girl, loves her mama
Loves Jesus and America too
She's a good girl, crazy 'bout Elvis
Loves horses and her boyfriend too
It’s
been a month, and it still hasn’t really sunk in yet that I am actually
here. Every day I’m like ‘I’m really in Hungary. This is really happening.’
It feels like I’m living in a dream. Maybe it’s because I sleep so much
here. Now, I was never really a nap person, but some days when I come home
from school, all I want to do is sleep. I don’t know if it’s just me, but
are all exchange students always this tired? Also, homesickness hasn’t
really paid a visit yet. I keep expecting it though, waiting for it to
strike when I least expect it.
On another note, all the Rotary students on exchange in Hungary had our
orientation on September 10 and 11. There are 35 brave souls who are in
Hungary this year. Of course, there are a lot from Brazil and the USA, so it
can get pretty loud when we are all together. You know you’re an exchange
student when you can make friends with other exchange students in less than
24 hours and (semi) peacefully debate religious and political issues with
them.
It's a
long day living in Reseda
There's a
freeway runnin' through the yard
And I'm a
bad boy ‘cause I don't even miss her
I'm a bad
boy for breakin' her heart
So, being in the 12th class means that I am taking part in the dance that
we do at the Szalagavató (the school dance in December.) I have practice two
days a week for this. Now, the practice is entirely in Hungarian, although
the teacher speaks fluent English. I think he enjoys watching me try to
figure out what’s going on. Most of the other students find it completely
hilarious, and I spend plenty of time laughing at myself. One of our moves
involves two groups of people rotating in an X formation. Well, as a band
geek, the actual dancing part while staying in a line is easy. As we are
practicing this, my inner band geek wants to start saying things along the
lines of “Dress the form! Check the diag! Stay on step!” (If you don’t know
marching terminology, I’m sorry that you won’t find this really funny). Yet,
I realize if I say any of this, everyone will look at me like ‘Huh?’
The first actual assignment I had to do for school was for my English
class. I had to do a presentation on a “typical” American high school and
afterschool activities. Most of the students were surprised that marching
band isn’t considered a sport after I showed them a video of our show from
last year. They kept asking me questions about football, cheerleaders,
schedules, and surfing. They seemed surprised when I told them that my high
school isn’t like the ones pictured in American movies and TV with the mean
football players and such.
And I'm
free, free fallin'
Yeah I'm
free, free fallin'
Last time, I kind of glossed over the language. Well, not many people
think of learning Hungarian, maybe because it only has 35 different noun
cases, and isn’t close to any other language (well, other than Finnish, but
even then). Myself and the other exchange students in Szolnok have one
language lesson a week, which is not enough. It doesn’t really help that our
Hungarian teacher starts teaching is past tense conjugation, when we barely
know the present tense conjugation. Yet, I’m learning more and more each
day, mostly a lot of words. My host parents don’t speak any English, so they
enjoy pointing at things and saying the Hungarian word for it until I repeat
it after them perfectly. So, my pronunciation has become pretty good. Still,
the 14 different vowels are really confusing.
All the
vampires walkin' through the valley
Move west
down Ventura Boulevard
And all
the bad boys are standing in the shadows
All the
good girls are home with broken hearts
Whenever everyone else isn’t around, Apa (my host father) loves to try to
feed me large amounts of food, especially for breakfast. Now, I’ve never
really been much of a breakfast person, so this is way different than what
I’m used to. His normal breakfast is about a third of loaf of bread with
some sort of cream cheese spread with sliced sausage (at least I think its
sausage). And the loaves of bread here are huge. I could get a loaf of bread
and it would feed me for about a week. That’s how big they are, or I just
don’t eat a lot.
Apa also makes this amazing spread that Ancsi, Láci and I eat almost
every day. When watching him make it, I was a little unsure, but it is
indescribably good. To make it takes a bag of feta cheese, half a container
of sour cream, cumin, onion, and paprika (no real surprise there). It may
sound nasty, but it’s so tasty.
I have been asked if a lot of people in America are overweight. Yes, in
other countries, they really think that Americans eat fast food all the
time. What I haven’t figured out is how Hungarians eat so much (and
everything is fried) yet still stay so skinny? Then again, it might be
because they actually exercise in their gym class. No one comes out of that
class without sweating about two pounds of their body weight.
And I'm
free, free fallin'
Yeah I'm
free, free fallin'
Free fallin', now I'm a, free fallin',
now I'm a
Free fallin', now I'm a, free fallin',
Each day here is slightly different, as I start school at a different
time each day. On the plus side, I can successfully navigate the city bus
system, and I’m getting really good at drawing maps. But I haven’t gotten
lost again, well yet. This coming weekend, the other exchange students in
Szolnok and I get to discover how to work the train system in Hungary. That
will be very entertaining. Much calamity will ensue.
I know I left this out last time, but I am taking flute lessons while in
Hungary. I’m taking from the Bartok Béla Zeneiskola, or for those who don’t
know Hungarian, Béla Bartok Music School. Now this isn’t the university in
Budapest, but it’s pretty good. I have two lessons a week, and my teacher
does expect me to practice (with a metronome).
I wanna
glide down over Mulholland
I wanna
write her name in the sky
Gonna free
fall out into nothin'
Gonna
leave this world for a while
Something different that I have noticed is the maps that are used here.
It’s something that I hadn’t ever noticed before, but maps in the United
States always depict North America in the center of the map. Here, Europe is
normally in the center of the map. It’s the little things that really catch
my attention. Things like differences in something as simple as a world map
that make me think how big the world really is. I keep learning more and
more about the world around me. The more I learn, the more I want to know.
Looking back on the past four weeks, it seems that time has already gone by
so fast. I just want to take every moment and live in it for all it’s worth.
And I'm
free, free fallin'
Yeah I'm
free, free fallin'
Lyrics from “Free Fallin’” as covered by The Almost,
originally by Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers
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October 25 |
I have,
I have you breathing down my neck
Breathing down my
neck
I don't, don't know what you could
Possibly expect under this condition
So I'll wait, I'll wait
For the ambulance to come, ambulance to come
Pick us up off the floor
What did you possibly expect
Under this condition, so slow down
This night's a perfect shade of
I’ve
been really busy these past weeks, so this is later than I expected
it to be. Adaption is hard, but it’s coming each and every day.
School has gotten harder. It’s not that the teachers now expect me
to learn in class, it’s that now I’m not the new person that every
one wants to talk with. The other students are understanding
of my very poor attempts at hungarian, but
communication is difficult. I am trying so hard not to fall into the
english trap.
I
still haven’t faced homesickness, and haven’t called home or skyped
with my parents once. Although it hasn’t affected me, the other
Rotary students at my school, have been having a hard time with
homesickness. As the one that hasn’t faced it yet, they often come
and talk to me about it.
Dark blue, dark blue, have you
Ever been alone in a crowded room?
Well, I'm here with you, I said
The world could be burning and burning down
Dark blue, dark blue, have you
Ever been alone in a crowded room?
Well, I'm here with you, I said
The world could be burning
'Til there's nothing but dark blue
Just dark blue
At
the beginning of this month, all the exchange students in Hungary
took a trip to West Hungary and Venice. We had a ten hour bus ride,
overnight, with about thirty exchange studnets, meaning that most
people won’t get any sleep. We also learned that no coherent
conversations occur at two in the moring.
Once we arrived in Venice, Béla,
the district chairman for Hungary, gave us the entire day to wander
the city. I set out with two students from California, Frank and
Katie. With Frank being the direction ninja he is, we wandered
around the city for a good five hours, but were always able to make
it back to St. Mark’s (our meeting place). Though it may sound
boring, we found all of these amazing churches, and saw such amazing
craftmanship and art in these buildings. We saw artwork that had
been created well before the United States was even thought to
exist. Me, being the music nut that I am, was really excited to find
Vivaldi’s church in a little corner of Venice.
Of
course, we couldn’t go to Venice without having real italian food.
We found this little pizza place, and each tried a different type of
pizza. Now, when ordering pizza, it’s important to remeber that
these pizzas are about ten inches in diameter, for one person. Katie
decided to be adventurous and try the seafood pizza. It was a normal
pizza, with crust and cheese, but topped with about three inches of
shrimp and mussels. We kept waiting for
Sebastian to appear and start singing ”Under the Sea.”
And this flood, this flood
Is slowly rising up, swallowing the ground
Beneath my feet, tell me
How anybody thinks under this condition
So, I'll swim, I'll swim
As the water rises up, sun is sinking down
And now all I can see are the planets in a row
Suggesting it's best that I slow down
This night's a perfect shade of
Ancsi is helping me learn so much when it comes to language. I can
now conjugate some verbs, which means I can make coherent sentances,
not just random strings of words. Still, most of my sentances don’t
fully make sense because the sentance structure here is so
different. Now, I always had trouble with the technicalities of
English grammer, so trying to explain english grammer to someone
learning english, as well as trying to learn Hungarian grammer just
makes it that much harder. Still, we always make it fun.
Possibly the funnest part of learning the languge is listening to
cds of Disney songs, that have been dubbed in Hungarian. Almost
every day, I watch a movie in Hungarian with English subtitles (if
they are available, if not, I get to guess what’s going on). I am
almost always listening to a Hungarian radio station, just to hear
the language. Still, it is weird to be listening to the radio and
hear songs from the Backstreet Boys come on.
Dark blue, dark blue, have you
Ever been alone in a crowded room?
Well, I'm here with you, I said
The world could be burning and burning down
Dark blue, dark blue
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room?
Well, I'm here with you, I said
The world could be burning dark blue
Someone, somewhere once said
“The trouble with foreign
languages is, you have to think before your speak.” This is
definitly true as any exchange student will know by now. The hardest
part about learning an increasingly complex language is having to
think through everything I say, and figure out where the
prepositions add on and what to change in the verb. A majority of
the time, it’s far from perfect and my pronunciation can be
downright horrendous (seeing as I am completely and utterly unable
from rolling my r’s), but speaking the language is the only way I
will get better.
I
am beginning to slowly understand what’s
going on around me. Well, most of the time. A majority of the
hungarian I hear can be explained by “word I know, hungarian,
hungarin, hungarian, word I know, more
hungarian” Still, being able to understand to sentances on the bus
home from school excited me.
We were boxing, we were boxing the stars
We were boxing, you were swinging from Mars
And then the water reached the west coast
And took the power lines, the power lines
And it was me and you, and the whole town underwater
There was nothing we could do it was dark blue
I
finally tried the infamous palinka that Hungary is famous for. It’s
hard to describe, but it might be something along the lines of
firewhiskey (excuse my Harry Potter reference but it’s the closest
comparason I can think of). The first taste is somewhat hard to get
past, but after that it’s not too bad. It all depends on the flavor
of the palinka. It’s a little strong for me though.Although, the
burning sensation that follows the initial taste, is quite useful on
a cold day in Hungary.
I
first tried palinka at a tradition called “disznovagyas” which
literally translates to ’cutting the pig.’ For this tradition, my
entire host family gathered at my host grandmother’s house in Jászkisér
(look up spelling). Once there, the men of the family proceeded to
cut and cook the pig and other such details. I stayed inside the
house with my host mother and her sister, while the actual pig
cutting part was going on. Láci
and I also biked around the small village where they lived.
After cutting the pig, part of the meat is cooked right away, while
another part is used to make sausages, called hurka. Now, watching
the sausage being made can be either fascinating or completely
disgusting, possibly a mix of both.
Dark blue, dark blue, have you
Ever been alone in a crowded room?
Well, I'm here with you, I said
The world could be burning and burning down
Dark blue
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room?
Well, I'm here with you, I said
The world could be burning
Now there's nothing but dark blue
If you've ever been alone
You'll know dark blue
If you've ever been alone
You'll know, you'll know
Lyrics
from "Dark Blue" by Jack’s Mannequin
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Well, there's a time for feelin' as
good as we can
The time is now and there's no stoppin' us
There's a time for livin' as high as we can
Behind us you will only see our dust
So we just keep smilin', move onward every day
Try to keep our thoughts away from home
We're trav'lin' all around, no time to settle down
And satisfy our wanderlust to roam
It’s hard to believe that
it’s been almost three months since I arrived here. It feels like time has
flown by. With the leaves changing colors, it almost seems that the world
has come alive with colors. Yes I’ve seen trees with leaves that change
colors in the fall, but it seems more vibrant, and more full of life here.
I cannot say how much I love my host family.
I feel like such a part of my family. It’s almost impossible to explain how
much I fit in here. Every week my host mother and I watch Megasztar and X-Faktor,
which are kind of like American Idol, only much better. Even though she
doesn’t speak any English, and I am still only speaking very basic level
Hungarian, we manage to understand each other (it normally involves charades
and pictures). My host father is currently having very much fun teaching me
how to play ping-pong. We play almost every week. Slowly, I’m getting
better at aiming the ball, so it doesn’t go into the plants, but personally
I’m convinced that the ball likes landing in the plants. It’s just my darn
left-handedness, and terrible hand-eye coordination.
You know we're havin' good days
And we hope they're gonna last
Our future still looks brighter than our past
We feel no need to worry, no reason to be sad
Our mem'ries remind us
Maybe road life's not so bad
A few weekends ago, my host family and I
went to Lake Balaton. When we got to their house, we proceeded to take a
boat ride over to the other side of the very large lake. There, we walked to
a fish festival where we ate, well, fish. It was kind of like a cultural
festival. There were all of these people selling handmade goods out of
booths. Possibly the coolest thing there was a display of traditional
archery and sword fighting. How often is there an actual archery competition
in a festival like that? It was completely amazing.
Well, it’s getting very cold
here. I’m expecting it to snow soon. My host family says it’s going to be
the coldest winter that they’ve had in a few years. My classmates are always
surprised that I’m already cold and it’s only November. Some
mornings, I look out of the window of the room I share with Ancsi and see
the frost over their backyard. I can’t help but think that my 15 walk to the
bus stop won’t be fun in December and January.
Well, from sea to shining sea and a hundred points between
Still we go on digging every show
The cities in the land all extend a welcome hand
Till the morning when it's time for us to go
The other day, my host brother asked a
question in Hungarian, and was completely surprised when I answered him. The
funny thing was, I didn’t even have to think about what he asked, his
question just made sense. It wasn’t like he was speaking another language at
all. There are times where I’ll forget something about English that should
seem natural. I’m getting so used to hearing something other than English.
Still, my pronunciation and actual speaking can be downright terrible at
times. I am completely incapable of rolling my r’s, and differentiating
because the pronunciation of vowels (because they have 14 here). I just have
to remind myself that the secret of accomplishing anything is baby steps.
There are very few things that have accomplished overnight.
Well, you know we're having good
days
And we hope they're going to last
Our future still looks brighter than our past
Feel no need to worry, no reason to be sad
Our mem'ries remind us
Maybe road life's not so bad
To the students who are waiting for a
response from Rotary, my one piece of advice is that Rotary knows what they
are doing. For those of you that are accepted, prepare for the next three
years of your life to be one long adventure. Expect the work and don’t wait
until the last minute to do anything. If Rotary says to do something, just
do it. It will help. And for those of you who don’t get what you believe is
your ‘dream’ country, keep your mind open. Honestly, when I first learned
that I would be going to Hungary, I was happy, but apprehensive. Yet, after
learning more about the country, and especially after being here, I have
fallen in love with this country, with the people, and with the language. I
feel like there’s not really another place that I would rather be, than
right here, in Szolnok Hungary. True it’s a little town, with no more than
70,000 people, but for me, it’s truly become home. Köszönöm szepen Rotary!
Oh, yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
Maybe road life's not so bad
Road life's not so bad, oh yeah, yeah
Oh, yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
Lyrics from “Making Memories” by
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Slow down
you crazy child
You’re so
ambitious for a juvenile
If you’re so smart, then tell me why you’re
still so afraid?
Where’s the fire, what’s the hurry about?
You better cool it off before you burn it
out.
You’ve got so much to do and only so many
hours in a day.
It’s so hard to believe that it’s been three
months since I came to Hungary. The time seems to go by so quickly. It’s
snowing here now. Still, everyone tells me that it’s a warmer year than
usual. Despite this affirmation, I still attest that it’s really cold.
This constant statement always seems to make my host family laugh. Anya
and Ancsi refuse to let me leave the house until they are sure I am
wearing at least two sweaters underneath my coat, gloves, a hat and
scarf, and my boots.
On December 6th is a celebration in
schools and families all across Hungary. All the students bring packages
of chocolates to school and exchange them with other students in the
class. Sometimes, like in my class, one student dresses up as St.
Nicholas, or Santa Claus, and hands out the packages of chocolate. All
in all, it was so much fun. I felt like my class accepted me as one of
them, instead of simply an exchange student only there for the year.
And you
know that when the truth is told
That you can get
what you want or you can just get old
You’re gonna kick off before you even get
halfway through
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you
My host family in Szolnok insisted that we
celebrate Thanksgiving. Ansci and Laci were quite excited about Anya not
making them go to school that day. So, on November 25, Anya, Nagymama (Anya’s
mother) and I were shoved into the small kitchen cooking for the day. It
was entertaining, difficult, and really fun. Somehow, Apa even managed
to find a turkey, which are really hard to find in Eastern Europe.
There was some improvising on the recipes, as
cream of mushroom soup, boxed stuffing, pecans, and sweet potatoes are
virtually impossible to find in a Szolnok grocery store. Still,
everything came out edible, despite partially making up the pumpkin pie
as I went. My host family said that they wanted to celebrate
Thanksgiving every year.
Slow down, you’re
doin’ fine
You can be everything you want to be before
you time
Although it’s so romantic on the borderline
tonight
Too bad but it’s the life you lead
You’re so ahead of yourself that you’ve
forgot what you need
Though you can see when you’re wrong, you
can’t always see when you’re right
Earlier this month, all of the Rotary students in
Hungary took a trip to Vienna, also known as Bécs
in Magyarorság.
It was so much fun. Myself and one of the other students wandered
through the museum district and the Christmas market. We found a really
interesting museum, with free admission, that had exhibits on ancient
musical instruments, medieval arms and armor, and Ephesians
architecture.
One of the highlights of the trip was finding Milka
Land. See, Milka is the brand for this completely amazing chocolate that
is found in Europe. They were giving away large
amounts free chocolate and everything. It was so much fun. To say the
least, almost all of the exchange students made a stop there. It was
right by the Christmas Market, so it was relatively easy to find.
The Christmas Market in Vienna is in one word,
chaotic. There were so many people there; all fighting to reach their
destination, which were normally the food vendors. It was, in short,
completely amazing.
You got your passion, you got your pride
But don’t you only know that fools are
satisfied
Dream on but don’t imagine they’ll all come
true
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you
On December
18, my school had the Szálágáváto
for the students of the 12th class. Each class performs two
dances, one of which is a waltz; the other is usually Latin or rock.
Taking part in this occasion was an experience I will always remember.
For the waltz, the girls wear these large white dresses that we
literally had to be tied into. There is nothing else like this
experience. For all of the members of the 12th class and
their families, it is the moment that they have been waiting for.
Slow
down you crazy child,
Take the phone off
the hook and disappear for a while
It’s alright; you can afford to lose a day
or two
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you
I no longer seem to think of my host family as
my ‘host’ family. They have really become my family here. Any time I
think of them, I don’t think of them as simply a family I am staying
with. I think of Ansci and Láci as a brother and sister, and Anya and
Apa as a mother and father to me. It’s these relationships that are
formed that RYE is all about. It’s one of those things that is extremely
hard to explain, like that feeling of having a whole conversation in
your new language with a stranger. I think that any other exchange
student might understand easily. It’s that feeling that you’ve
accomplished something so difficult, something so extraordinary. I’m
thankful for each and every day here. It’s hard to say that there’s a
place that I would rather be.
And you know that
when the truth is told
That you can get what you want or you can
just get old
You’re gonna kick off before you even get
halfway through
Why don’t you realize, Vienna waits for you
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you
Lyrics from “Vienna” by Billy Joel
(The first photo is from my school's Sálágáváto, the second is from
Vienna)

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I’m a
suspect, I’m a traitor,
I’m only here in body visiting
Yellow faces, in the distance scream
The beauty is in what isn’t said
I’m rising to my feet
Because tonight, the world turned in me
Because right now, I don’t dare to
breathe
Oh babe I know, it’s alive
It’s somewhere for us to find tonight
Chase this Light with me!
Christmas and New Year’s weren’t as hard as I
thought that they would be. Christmas here is a small family
celebration on the 24th, then a large family gathering on
the 25th. For Christmas day, we went to Jaskisher, and
spent the day at my host grandparents’ house. We spent the whole day
talking, playing games, and eating (of course).
Our New Year’s Celebration was fairly small,
mainly because Apa was sick. We spent New Year’s Eve and day at
Lake Balaton. Although I didn’t go to any big parties,
we still had plenty of fun. The coolest thing that we did was walk
on the surface of the lake. It was completely frozen over. People
were out skating on it, sledding, and other fun wintery activities.
The language is getting easier as time
progresses. I’m still not where I would like to be, but am
progressing every day. As of now, I can understand and write fairly
well, it’s the speaking that is the hardest. I try to hear the
language as much as possible, whether it’s music, movies, the news,
or just people speaking on the street.
My just so, my last call
My life is yours, in your gifted hands
Confetti rainfall, in the quiet street
These things I’ve found are special now
The knot is in my reach
Because tonight, the world turned in me
Because right now, I don’t dare to
breathe
Oh babe I know, it’s alive
It’s somewhere for us to find tonight
Chase this Light with me!
I think I’m beginning to think of myself as
Hungarian. I no longer consider it cold when it’s above 3 degrees
Celsius (about 37 F.)
I am now accustomed to eating soup at every meal
and slurping it with pride. Possibly one of the most interesting
changes was when asked a question about New Year’s Eve in the States
by Ancsi. In my answer, instead of saying “we”, I said “they”. The
funny thing was that I didn’t even realize I had done that until she
pointed it out.
People here are very proud of their country. It’s
a type of pride that stretches beyond the current boarders, to where
the boarders of the country used to be. There are so many people who
consider themselves Hungarians who do not actually live in the
country, but in areas that used to be part of the country before the
First World War. The longer I am here, the more I understand, and
the more I realize I have so much still to learn.
Movie Screens, Photographs
Through another’s eyes I can see
I’ve seen the best of love, the best of
hate
The best reward is earned and I’ve paid
For every single word, I’ve ever said
Change is inevitable. Winter to spring, day to
night, year to year. With each passing tick of the second hand,
things change, ideas change, people change. I’ve come to realize
that change is one of the few inflexible constants in this world.
That may sound contradictory of the word’s meaning, saying that
change is constant, but it’s something I’ve learned in this
experience. Nothing is ever the same. Everything changes over time.
It is something inevitable and unalterable, a fact of nature.
Nothing ever stays the same, not even the things that we believe to
be the most constant.
I’ve realized this over the course of this
experience that change is not something that we can fight. Rather,
it is something that we must learn to accept and embrace willingly.
It’s about adapting to the bumps along the road, not gripe about the
perfect trip we could have had. After all, it’s those bumps that
become the adventures that make everything all worth it.
Confetti rainfall, in the quiet street
The beauty is in what you make it
So get up on your feet
Because tonight, the
world turned in me
Because right now, I don’t dare to
breathe
Oh babe I know, it’s
alive
It’s somewhere for us to find tonight
Chase this Light with me
Oh babe I know, it’s alive
It’s somewhere for us to find tonight
Chase this Light with me.
Lyrics from “Chase this Light” by Jimmy Eat World


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From today all the days are only half as long
Nothing left to love about
Yesterday’s one million years ago
The day before already went down
Time’s been replaced by a countdown
The sun is shining in the night
So here are the words, just think twice
Wake me up cause time is running out
It’s running out
On this side of the new year, everything seems to move
much faster. Having had to decide the date for the return flight finally
made me realize that the end is coming. I never realized how much I consider
this place home. I can’t even think of driving again now that I’ve gotten
used to taking busses everywhere. I can’t really imagine how I can go back
to living in Florida
without comparing to something here. It’s the little things that never cease
to amaze me, like the fact that it’s almost March and it’s still snowing.
Still, I find that I miss the constant sunshine of
Florida.
Live every Second
Here and now
Don’t let go
Live every second
Here and now
Don’t let go
Before it’s too late
On the 4th we had a presentation in front of
the new outbounds from Hungary
in Budapest.
Like typical exchange students, we waited until the last minute to prepare
anything. Still, it somehow managed to all come together in time. Us
Americans were up in front of the new outbounds talking in Hungarian with
our faces painted, and then dancing the Cha-Cha Slide with them. Well, they
watched us dance the Cha-Cha Slide.
Ancsi will be an exchange student in
Ecuador
next year. It’s so different seeing another going through the process now
that I’ve been through it myself. I feel I’ve grown so much through this
experience. I feel so much older and mature. I feel like I’ve become more
confident of myself and my abilities.
From today your life is just a TV show
You can even get a planet for free
The whole galaxy is chilling out
And time is all you can see
Don’t thank us now is all that counts
Remember that before you forget
So here are the words, just think twice
Wake me up because time is running out
It’s running out
In the last week of February, Ancsi and I went to the Táncház
at the cultural center in our part of the city. This is a whole night of
traditional Hungarian dancing and music. It’s a celebration that lasts well
into the morning. Ancsi spent years learning Hungarian folk dance, so she is
really good. She taught me some of the easier steps. The thing about folk
dance in Hungary
is that the music starts out at a reasonable pace, and then gradually speeds
up until it becomes impossible to dance. It was still so much fun for
everyone.
At the end of the winter is a celebration called Farsang,
where everyone dresses up in costumes to celebrate the end of the winter. My
Rotary club had a Farsang party in
Szolnok
for its members and the exchange students. It was great seeing everyone
again after not being able to see each other for over two months. The one
thing about exchange students is that no matter how long it is before we see
each other again, it only seems like it’s been a few days. Ancsi and I went
to the party in traditional Hungarian clothing, which is completely
different from anything I am used to.
Live every Second
Here and now
Don’t let go
Live every second
Here and now
Don’t let go
Wake up, wake up, wake up
It’s over now
Wake up
There are highs and lows in any experience, and
that’s to be expected. Yet nothing can ever really prepare for when the hard
times come, not even everything Rotary tells us. No, I’m still not homesick,
but I’ve helped the other students in
Szolnok through their homesickness periods.
Nonetheless, after six months, things have started to fall into a routine
here.
Because of this routine, I want to challenge myself and
the other outbounds to change things up. Go out of your way to do something
you normally wouldn’t do. This could be as simple as sitting in a different
spot at lunch, talking to someone new, or going home a different way.
As for the new outbounds, I suggest that you start
learning your languages now. Yes, I know, I procrastinated, just as you are
likely doing now. Yet the best part of the exchange comes only when you’ve
gained some degree of fluency in the language. I still have some trouble
speaking, but am able to understand pretty much anything that is said. The
other day I actually had a dream in Hungarian and was able to remember what
happened. Time is short. I only have four months left in this amazing
country called Hungary.
I’ve learned so much in such a short time, and don’t want this adventure to
end. So far, this has been the best seven months of my life. Thank you
Rotary!
Live every second
Here and now
Don’t let go
Live every second
Here and now
Don’t let go
Before it’s too late
Before it’s too late
Stop it now
Lyrics from “Live Every Second” by Tokio Hotel
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"Tell
me what you thought about when you were gone and so alone
The worst is over; you can have the best of me
We got older, but we’re still young
We never grew out of this feeling that we won’t give up"
Well it’s been eight months. I can hardly believe how quickly the time has
passed. It seems like just the other day I was meeting my host family for
the first time. I still remember my first Rotary meeting and the first day
at my school. So much has happened since then. All of the Rotex said how
fast the year would go, and now I know what they mean.
Living in Hungary for a year has changed my life. I know that sounds so
cliché, but it’s completely true. I easily remember when I was choosing my
preferred countries as part of the application. Not once did I ever think
that making a little check mark in the box next to Hungary would make such a
difference. I’ve never regretted my decision to come here.
"Here we lay again, on two separate beds
Riding phone lines to be that familiar voice
And pictures drawn from memories
We reflect on miscommunications and misunderstandings
And missing each other too; much too much to let this go
We turn our music down and we whisper
Say what you’re thinking right now"
From the 15th to the 17th, all of the Rotary students took a trip to Poland.
There is nothing like a bus trip with Rotary students. Possibly the most
important lesson I have learned on these trips is how to fully function for
an entire weekend on only about 6 hours of sleep. The other is how to sleep
comfortably on a bus, but that’s beside the point.
Krakow is an amazing city. We reached Krakow late Friday night and left
mid-morning on Sunday. One of the most memorable moments of the trip was
visiting Auschwitz. It’s one thing to simply read about the Holocaust or to
learn about it in history class. It’s another thing to actually be where
everything took place. There are things that happened there that are
impossible for time to erase. Its experiences like this that can really
change a person. If everyone in the world takes the time to visit places
like this, then there is definitely a possibility that there will be no more
wars.
"Tell me what you thought about when you were gone and so alone
The worst is over; you can have the best of me
We got older, but we’re still young
We never grew out of this feeling that we won’t give up"
It’s weird when I dream at night. I swear that this tangent actually has a
point so stick with me. Before I left, I used to never dream, or I would
never remember my dreams. So, when I actually remember my dreams here it
seems really weird. It gets even weirder when I realize that sometimes these
dreams are in Hungarian.
I remember the first time I realized I was dreaming in Hungarian. It was one
of those epiphanies that only happen every so often. It was one of those
moments that is like “Holy crap, I’m dreaming in another language.” It made
me feel like I finally know the language, not just phrases and words.
"Jumping to conclusion made me fall away from you
I’m so glad that the truth has brought together me and you
We’re sitting on the ground and we whisper
Say what you’re thinking out loud"
I feel like I’m running from time. Just this month, I’ve already given my
presentation to my Rotary Club about Florida and have ‘graduated’ with my
class at the end of this month. Time seems to be speeding by. I can’t
believe there’s only two months left. I feel like I’ve been here so long,
but also that I haven’t been here long enough. I know for certain that I
want to come back here.
I’ve fallen in love with Hungary. I love everything about this country. I
love the rich cultural traditions and the uniqueness of the language. For
me, there can be no place quite like this. The small city of Szolnok has
truly become my home. Although it’s small and may seem boring, for me,
there’s no place quite like it in the world.
"Tell me what you thought about when you were gone and so alone
The worst is over; you can have the best of me
We got older, but we’re still young
We never grew out of this feeling that we won’t give up"
I think that everyone, at some point in their life wants to be a hero. One
of the defining moment of any hero, be it fictional or real, is the moment
of leaving. It’s that moment where the hero steps out of everything that he
or she has known and leaves everything behind. Every single one of us
outbounds has done that, and every new outbound is preparing to take that
step.
In our own right, I think that every one of us is a hero. For facing
everything we have, new families, new languages, new friends, new schools,
we’ve come out successful. That step is the hardest one to take, to make
that decision that will change your entire life in a moment. I know that
taking that step changed my life. I’ve become more confident and more aware
of the world as a whole. I’ve learned to carry myself differently, as a
person of the world and not just an American or a Hungarian.
"Tell me what you thought about when you were gone and so alone
The worst is over; you can have the best of me
We got older, but we’re still young
We never grew out of this feeling that we won’t give up
We’re not ready to give up"
Lyrics from “The Best of Me” from The Starting Line
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Most of the the exchange students on the way to Krakow |
The
gate at the main camp of Auschwitz |
Me
sitting on a fountain outside of St. Mary's Cathedral in Krakow,
Poland
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Ancsi and I on the Chain Bridge in Budapest
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host cousins, Ancsi and I on Easter |
The
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I
am born. I am me. I am new. I am free
Look at me, I am young. Sight unseen, life unsung
My eyes have just been opened and they’re opened very wide
Images around me don’t identify inside
Just one blur I recognize, the one that soothes and feeds
My way of life is easy and as simple as my needs
Ten months sounds like a long time before you leave. Now it seems not to be
long enough. In just one more month, I will be leaving everything here
behind me and heading off on another adventure. It feels like I’ve been so
long since I stepped on a plane and left for the greatest year of my life.
Now, it seems strange that I only have 19 days left in the place I now call
home. It’s hard to grasp that I’ll actually be leaving so soon. I’m not sure
if I should be excited, nervous, worried, or anxious. Part of me is looking
forward to moving on with my life, but another part of me will miss the
person I became in Hungary and the people I met.
And yet my eyes are drawn toward the mountain in the east
It fascinates and captivates and gives my heart no peace
The mountain holds a sunrise in the prison of the night
Till’ bursting forth from rocky chains, the valley floods with light
Living one long sunrise for to me to all things are new
I never watched the sky grow pale or strolled through fields of dew
I do not live from dust to dust; I live from breath to breath
I live to climb that mountain to the fountain of Lamneth
I’ve just gotten back from the first Eurotour that the Hungarian exchange
students go on. Yes, we have two different Eurotours. Anyone who’s been on
Eurotour knows that 16 exchange students on a long bus trip across
Southern Europe will be
chaotic at the least. Not everyone went on the first Eurotour. There were
only 16 out of the 30 students in Hungary on the trip. Over half of those
were Brazilians, which meant that the trip was anything but boring.
This was the trip around Southern Europe. We traveled to ten cities in six
different countries. These were
Postojna, Slovenia;
Trieste, Florence, Rome,
and Pisa, Italy; Nice
and Cannes, France;
Luzern, Switzerland; Innsruck and
Graz, Austria; and
Zagreb, Croatia. The
two most memorable moments for the whole trip were visiting the
Vatican City in Rome
and sailing on the Mediterranean on the first day of the
Cannes Film Festival.
Whiteness of confusion is unfolding from my mind
I stare around in wonder. Have I left my life behind?
I catch a scent of ambergris and turn my head surprised
My gaze is caught and held and I am helpless, mesmerized
Panacea, liquid grace, Let me touch your fragile face.
Enchantment falls around me and I know I cannot leave.
Before I left, I thought that the hardest part would be surviving the first
four months and adaption. I thought that homesickness would be the worst
thing I could possibly escape. (Just for the record, I still haven’t been
homesick. Crazy, right?) Now I know that I was wrong. Leaving to live in
another country for 10 months seems almost easy compared to the thought of
leaving the place I now call home. I love Hungary and I cannot think life in
another place. I’ve become someone else here. I’ve transformed into someone
more confident and mature.
Another endless day, silhouettes of grey
Another glass of wine, drink with eyes that shine
To days without that chill at morning, long nights, time out of mind
Another foggy dawn, the mountain almost gone
Another doubtful fear, the road is not so clear
My soul is ever weary, and the end is ever near
Draw another goblet from the cask of 43
Here’s a misty memory, hazy glimpse of me
Give me back my wonder; I’ve something more to give
I guess it doesn’t matter, there’s not much more to live
Everything has a moment. I’ve learned that a key part of happiness on
exchange is living in that moment. It’s not about dwelling in the past or
thinking about what might have been. It’s about taking a single moment and
seizing it before it slips away. None of us live forever. Each day is simply
another gift that we need to make the most of. Each moment in time is
unique. We can never be at the same place again. Sure, we can physically be
in the same place, but not emotionally or even with the same people, but it
will never be the same. There are no do-over’s in life, just one shot to
make something last as long as it can.
Look the mist is rising and the sun is peeking through
See the steps grow lighter as I reach the final few
Hear the dancing waters, I must be drawing near
Feel my heart is pounding, with embattled doubt and fear
Now at last I fall before the fountain of Lamneth
I thought that I’d be singing, but I’m tired, out of breath
Many journeys end here, but in the end it’s all the same
Life is just a candle, and the dream must give it flame
I’ve learned that I don’t need to protect myself quite so much. I’ve learned
that there may not be a thing like tomorrow. I’ve learned that every
beginning is an end and that every end is a beginning. I’ve learned that to
gain something valuable, we must be prepared to lose everything we value.
I’ve learned that life isn’t easy, but if it was, it wouldn’t be half the
enjoyable challenge that it is. But most of all, I’ve learned that I’m not
always right. I’ve learned that I’m only human, and that I’m allowed to make
mistakes. After all, that’s what being human is.
The key, the end, the answer trapped in their disguise
Still it’s all confusion and tears spring to my eyes
Though I‘ve reached the signpost, it’s really not the end
Life goes on beyond the mountain; I’ll be coming up again
I’m in motion, I am still. I am crying. I am still
I’m together, I’m apart. I’m forever, at the start.
Still I am.
Selected lyrics from “The
Fountain of Lamneth” by Rush
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of the students from the first Eurotour in Florence |
Me
standing in front of the Trevi Fountain in Rome |
The
students from the first Eurotour in Pisa |
Some of us who were sailing in Cannes |
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